I broke up with my ex-girlfriend about a month ago. Since then, she has not stopped contacting me. Little texts throughout the week, asking about how I’m doing, or informing of the random things she’s been doing flood my phone sporadically.

I knew she wasn’t the one for me about a few months before I broke up with her. Something just wasn’t cutting it. We couldn’t really connect on an intellectual level, and our lives seemed to be on completely different pages. Not just different pages – sometimes, it seemed like we were in different books. I knew it wouldn’t last. I knew I had to put an end to the relationship before it got too far…before we were in too deep, so deep, that there was no way out.

Since the break-up, I’ve been lonely. I’ve been lonely, but I know that I’ve done the right thing. I am completely available and open to the woman of my dreams, should she come along some day. Then there are those moments of weakness. Those moments where a sweet text from a past love will show up in your phone, and where you’ll feel like you want the familiar comfort of a loving friend. It’s hard to stay lonely to keep yourself open to new love when your past love keeps knocking at the door, telling you that she’ll comfort you – no questions asked, with arms wide open.

I’m going to stay strong. I’m going to wait for what I’ve always wanted. I’m not going to settle.

“Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies.” – Carrie, Sex and the City.